Still looking for a job, but I think I might be sabotaging myself just a little bit. The days have been flying by, and I’ve gotten distracted.
For instance, suddenly it’s very important to get this book edited and submitted, when years have gone by with little thought to it. And it’s going quite well, I must say. This might not be what you want to hear, and you might not believe me, but…I’ve had a job and written, and I’ve had no job and written, and it’s easier with a job. Obviously your time will be limited, but that seems to be an important element for me. Once I had all the time in the world writing became less of a priority. And it was a lot of pressure, because it was the MOST IMPORTANT THING IN THE WORLD. In fact, it was the only other thing I had to do besides housework and kid stuff. I think that’s probably why it’s suddenly easier to get back into it, because I’m busier now. I don’t have so much time to think about how important it is, or to feel guilty for not doing it.
The housework has also become important. The holidays are coming up, you know.
And so has Mad Men. Again. I’ve seen every episode at least twice, and most of them three times. It depresses me, though, the darkness of it. Even the happy people in that show are unhappy. But I love it anyway.
But I guess I do need to make the job hunt important again. It just seems like there’s nothing for me. Maybe I should make my own job. Queen. I’ll be Queen of America. Somebody pay me.
Good luck. I know all about the job thing, and I can't even tell you how many people swore up and down I squandered my two years out of work as writing time. But I wasn't able to do it, full stop.
ReplyDeleteHope you get something. Jobs are hard to come by.
Thanks, Knyt. I know how much you struggled with the guilt of having time to write and not being able to. At least as much as I did. But yay for us, being on the other side of that shit.
ReplyDeleteHey, I got dibs on the Queen thing!
ReplyDeleteGood luck with the search. With holidays coming up, extra income is really needful now.
Hope you're not too "shaken, not stirred" from the earthquake stuff!
It's pretty crazy. I think some of the normal cracks in the walls are bigger, and some things might have shifted. I'm sure it's not covered by my insurance, though. I have to check on that. I really don't want to.
ReplyDeleteThere does seem to be that magic writing time--not too busy but not not busy. I'm currently in the too bust phase...sigh. But if the writing is going well--yea you! Yea you for many things.
ReplyDeleteI like Mad Men too--though I don't watch it. It is depressing. Why do we like it then?
It's a gorgeous show, first of all. The characters are deeply layered, and the storylines are compelling. I do think they can be heavy-handed in the scenes showing those crazy 60s attitudes, but it's a trade-off. Anyway, I just finished watching the whole series for the third time, and I've had a different experience every time.
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